I don't think it's the hormones anymore. I think my life is just plain taking a shitty turn. I'm sitting at lunch, crying. I'm scared, and upset and just plain out of it. I'm in pain, I'm hurting, I'm miserable. I can't get happy. I can't sleep at night, and I'm just feeling exhausted about everything. The donor keeps nagging at me about spending time with him. If I'm there he feels crowded, if I'm not there he says I'm not taking care of myself. I'm just tired of fighting. I'm getting closer and closer to this baby coming and I don't want to have to deal with anything. Unfortunately, I can't just sit in a hole somewhere. Even though that is exactly what I want to do. I can't take anymore negativity. I can't try to be positive about the baby coming and have to constantly keep knocking out the negative commentary from the donor. He runs hot and cold. I need something stable in my life right now, and I'm not getting it.