New Year's Resolution

As a rule, I don't typically make New Year's resolutions. Mainly because I never keep them. This year I feel safe making one. I shall never like Beth. The evil, blood sucking ex-gf of the donor. She single handedly ruined my holidays. I think the donor and I argued more these past two weeks than we have our entire stinking relationship. It's all over her.

First, she sent him a x-mas card. Not one to the family, not the boys...him. In the card she sends kisses and hugs and love. Also a gift certificate to a restaurant here and a subscription to TV guide. So we will get a reminder of her every fucking week. Did I mention that he received it on our 2 year anniversary?

Then, we are picking his son up from camp and on the way home receive a test message from her. I was about to answer it, very politely might I add, and the donor jumps my shit about wanting to write her back. I got quiet, as I usually do, and he starts bitching that I'm now going to make him miserable because she paged him. THAT was it. As soon as we came to a stop off the interstate I got out of the car and told him I was walking home. I was soooo pissed.

I thought about her interference in our marriage, the donor's reaction, and my reaction. I've decided that I'm done being the bad guy. I told him I wanted a divorce. If he wants to keep her in his life so badly, then by all means. I'd get out of the way and let him have her.

Oh, no, he says....that's not what he wants at all. He could have had her if he wanted her, and it's not him that's contacting her...etc.etc..etc.

Well, he sure as hell is jumping to her defense whenever I say that she doesn't have honest intentions.

What finally got me was that we argued for a while...when I finally got sick of him trailing me and got back in the car, was that he was more concerned about other people's feelings that mine.

New Year's day was his anniversary with his first wife. I told him that maybe he should call her and wish her a happy anniversary. He said that he didn't think that her husband would appreciate that Ironically, he doesn't have as much concern for my feelings when she pages him every month to wish him a happy anniversary. Psychotic bitch. I pointed this out to him.

Then, to prove my point even further that she had no qualms about breaking us up, I paged her back and told her that the donor was not out of town, that he was at home if she wanted to talk to him, and congratulated her on her new car. Then I signed my name. Two minutes later the phone rang. I told the donor to pick it up. It was her.

She jumped on the opportunity to talk to him faster than a fly on shit. I showed the donor my response and stated that I knew she would not page me back to say thanks, but she would jump at the opportunity to talk to him.

I think that he's starting to get my point, but he still wants to make a joke of it. He says that if she wants to be mean then we should send her a magazine, and that we can send her a pic of us eating out at the restaurant. I said we could send her baby talk magazine. That way she knows what she's missing.

Sigh.....I would never do that. I don't want to hurt people.

The donor said he's going to tell her never to contact him again....yeah, right. He says that if he sends he wet nuts she will know that he never wants to see or hear from her. Private joke between them. He really does want to piss me off. Can't he just write her a letter and tell her to fuck off?

Marriage is complicated.